book review

When I Was Me | Book Review

First of all,  I apologize for the lack of posts these few weeks. I am in the middle of sorting out my schoolwork and portfolio, everything was somewhat of a mess. Enough of my life story, let’s get into it.

What intrigued me to buy the book was its beautiful cover. It’s very eye-catching, after reading the synopsis though, I was hooked.


“If you can’t trust yourself, then who can you trust?” 

Synopsis : When Ella wakes up one Monday morning, she discovers that she is not herself and that her life is not her own. She looks different, her friends are no longer her friends and her existence has been erased from the internet. Even worse, years of her history appear to have been rewritten overnight. And yet, nobody else thinks that anything weird has happened.

A tense and dark psychological thriller full of unexpected twists and turns about the random events and decisions that make us who we are.


Sadly though, the brilliant concept wasn’t delivered thoroughly. Making this book a sloppy attempt at a psychological thriller. It is understood that the concept of parallel universes is not something as comprehensive as should I say a fictional dystopian city, it needs to be backed up with science (even though it’s science fiction). All in all, the fact there is a possibility of parallel universes and our minimum understanding of it, makes it harder to write a whole story around such concept.

Personally, I liked how the writer described the main character’s fear of being in another dimension. That jumping universes isn’t a cool thing, it’s really scary especially when you’ve done it involuntarily and there is no known way of going back.

What I don’t like though, is the main character (Ella) herself. She’s the stereotypical 21st century ungrateful emo child (note the word, stereotypical). Her behaviour in the first chapters were tolerable, but continuing on I felt like flipping a table, she was selfish, annoying, she went out of her way to make characters around her felt unimportant, I guess that’s what happens when you’re stuck in a parallel universe. Also, we didn’t get to hear about parallel Ella, only the original (?) Ella.

It all pays off when you get to the end, which isn’t really an ending because the writer gave us scenarios of how the story could end, and it is surprisingly pleasing. Knowing that life is not just a straight line, but branches of possibilities that grows every time a choice is made. So, would I recommend this book to a friend? To you guys? Yes. Give it a read, you won’t regret it.

Final Rating – ★★★½

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p.s – I have to admit, I was a little bit obsessed with the concept of parallel universes after reading this though. and scared, imagine waking up in a world that looks like yours but with minor changes, like your phone is a different color, or you wake up with purple hair, makes us think if we’ve actually jumped universes but haven’t noticed it because there isn’t any significant difference (like cracks on the wall or aaahh).

p.p.s – If you’re interested in this kind of thing, other than reading this book you should watch Shane Dawson’s video on The Mandela Effect, it gave me goosebumps.


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